is it a sign that i am getting old when i have absolutely no interest in attending parties or partying, for that matter?
i used to be that person once, i know. whatever bash was going on, u would find me there. hell, i even threw some fairly big ones myself.
or maybe it's just certain kinds of parties..where the goal is to be surrounded by people & get inebriated. i had enough of that in my teens & early 20's. where & when exactly did i stop enjoying that life?
i suppose it was when i learned i could enjoy certain people sober. & these were the people i wanted to be around, mostly. humans can connect & form deep bonds during conversations we will remember the next day & perhaps the rest of our lives. i decided i didn't want to spoil the moments i could cherish with double vision.
as cheesy as it sounds, i feel a sense of exhilaration akin to drunkenness when being around people i love...who challenge me to use my brain & the cells in it that i have remaining. now, this doesn't mean i have or will swear off a drink from time to time. but moderation, i think, is best for me...a wine tasting, a couple beers or cocktails with a close group of friends is more my speed.
let's talk about the intangibles of the world, cultures different from ours, Descartes, poetry, classic literature, music that moves us & we don't even have to worry about getting our cars the next day!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
last act
it's finalmente
the last one is leaving
or left
years ago
effort exhausted
when none was spent
& these little girl dreams
lie in waste
i stare at them
scattered around my feet
in disbelief
at this stunning exit
careful, as i pick them up
fingers tremble
a quiet stillness before
my body becomes engulfed
in flames of rage
i wail, scream, choke, scratch, rip, & tear
pound this earth with my fists
music, alcohol, women, & work
always ahead of this liability
and now this...
farewell,
you fucking coward
the last one is leaving
or left
years ago
effort exhausted
when none was spent
& these little girl dreams
lie in waste
i stare at them
scattered around my feet
in disbelief
at this stunning exit
careful, as i pick them up
fingers tremble
a quiet stillness before
my body becomes engulfed
in flames of rage
i wail, scream, choke, scratch, rip, & tear
pound this earth with my fists
music, alcohol, women, & work
always ahead of this liability
and now this...
farewell,
you fucking coward
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